my FUCKING badass life

I cannot WAIT for my FUCKING. BADASS new life.

Where everyday my mind is free and detached, my being and soul rests in the eternal bliss and ease of pure nonattached presence. Where my spirit is untouched by darkness and radiates pure light. Where my felt, sensed experienced is one of bliss and fluidity and openness. Where my heart is wide open and light and love spreads from my being to all corners of the globe effortlessly, naturally.

I am an artist.
I am a creator.
I am an explorer.
I am a writer.

These are the things I will do. Create. Explore. Share. Serve. Uplift. Inspire.

When I move, my life will be fucking AWESOME. *scratch that - it will CONTINUE to be fucking awesome and blessed, abundantly full of beauty and light *

I am completely whole, fulfilled and at peace with the moment and the universe AS IT IS, right NOW. All is as it is meant to be, for it is. 

Though I am whole and at peace, and my peace and fulfillment is not attached to any certain external conditions, this seemingly dualistic play of universal consciousness is still here; and in this dream-world, there is desire. There are experiences I long to have. There are senses I want to sense, tastes I want to taste, sights I want to see, music I want to hear, music I want to make, love I want to make, love I want to feel, and things I want to do. Though all is one and all is perfect, and the essence of my mind grasps onto nothing, I do still intend to experience deeply and share deeply this temporary blink of the cosmic (I) eye. 

Thus, this is some of the badass shit I will be experiencing in my life in the near future...

... I AM SO FUCKING STOKED!!! 

• Going out, running and doing yoga on the beach EVERY MORNING

• Rising with the sun, setting with the sun. Living in harmony with nature's cycles. 

• Hanging out and connecting deeply with like-minded, awakened souls and kindred spirits. Friends, more and more. Growth, connection, community.

• Teaching donation-based spiritual practice / true nature yoga retreat classes at the state parks around Bradenton. The many beautiful water-front parks, perfect for teaching yoga and tai chi.

• Uniting with the feminine energy in a beautiful way. Beautiful sex.

• Like minds, awakened souls, kindred spirits, sensual bodies yoked and united in cosmic embrace. The boundaries of the false sense of "separate I" are broken and one realizes and remember one's oneness with the entirety of the whole universe. One realizes that one's true self is not just his physical body, but the body and the essence of the entire universe as a whole. the microcosm and the macrocosm, the individual and the universal, are one and the same - nondual - not two, but one. 

• Riding my bike all around town. My beautiful area of living. Meditating and practicing yoga all around the area by my place.

• Going to the farmer's markets and flea marts every weekend for local shit. 

•  Buying as much of my shit LOCALLY as possible. Except herb - import only pls.

• Write songs and articles and ideas and podcasts outside in the beautiful nature around my place. In the parks and waterfront areas.

• Creating beautiful music in my awesome chill-studio.

• Living in my DOPE, DOPE DOPE DOPE DOPE ass little chill pad.  With sick ass lighting, funny shit on the walls, dope positive shit on the walls, marley on the walls, inspirational shit on the walls. plants in the house. Plants and flowers in the kitchen. Fans around. Dope ass computer set-up. Dope ass yoga set-up. Suki living with me. AAAH MAN!!!
• Enjoying THE SWEET LIFE. La Dolce Vida. Freedom and fulfillment. A life full of pleasure and indulging in the things you love... in balance. 

LIFE IS GOING TO BE SO DAMN SICK!!!! "WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK I AM!" ~ GURREN LAGAANN!!  

See, we are all the masters of our own destiny. Especially when we become masters of our own mind, and realize our own power.


"All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become." - Buddha

"We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves." - Buddha

It is time to loosen up our spine, awaken our dormant energy and power, move and expand our energy flow, circulate, and reveal and radiate the infinite Light Within.

The time to step into our power is NOW. For NOW is ALL that is.

Time to live blissfully, live to the fullest and continue to savor this sweet, sweet life.

:D MMMMM...

Peace

Sharing The Journey

It's all about sharing our journeys with each other.
Our trials. Our joys. Our lessons. Our weaknesses. Our fears. Our darkness. Our light. Our power.
It is about letting ourselves be seen, and seeing each other.
Truly seeing each other. Accepting each other. Forgiving each other. Understanding each other.

This is what I hope to use as inspiration for sharing my life through my music and art.
To bare my soul and let myself be seen. Let myself be seen and felt and accepted and appreciated and understood. Let myself be seen and thus connect with others and see others who choose to open up as well.

Understanding that we are all here with the same basic purpose and desire - to experience as much happiness and peace as possible and to avoid as much pain and strife as possible.
We all want the same things in the end. We all encounter different versions of the same obstacles.
Pain. Fear. Loss. Anxiety. Despair. Doubt. Sadness. Aloneness. Suffering.
Yet, we also get times of light. When all is well. When all is good.
Joy. Love. Abundance. Freedom. Light. Happiness. Connection. Peace.
This is the cyclical nature of existence. Constant flux from one pole to the other.
The question is... is it ever possible to transcend this constant swing of the pendulum from peace to suffering, light to dark,
and experience a state of existence that remains steady and ever-peaceful, free of all darkness?
In a word: "enlightenment"? "Liberation"?
That is what we all seek, in some form of another. Freedom from pain and misery.
Because we all experience it. Deeply.
So we arrange things in our life so that they are pleasing to us and provide us with as much joy and solace and comfort as possible. Whatever path we take in life, whatever decisions we make, we usually do so on some level hoping that this path or decision will prove to be pleasant to us, and hoping that it will help us avoid pain and suffering.
Everything from what kind of lifestyle we choose to lead, what kind of relationships we choose to have (or not have), what activities we spend our days doing, how we choose to think and act, what things we aspire to, what things we try to avoid.
Ultimately, though, many of us discover that no matter what we try, no matter what we cling to in our lives to bring us that lasting happiness, inevitably those things and conditions change, dissipate and eventually disappear. "All things all impermanent." Clinging on to that which is impermanent for our permanent happiness and satisfaction is destined to fail.
And thus, many of us go through life and "lead lives of quiet desperation, and go to the grave with the song still in [us], as Henry David Thoreau once put it.
We go through life, expecting to find happiness from this relationship, from this career, from making this amount of money, from being this amount of popular, from having this many friends, from whether or not this team wins the game or not, on and on, and yet we inevitably find that these conditions constantly change and do not last. And thus, our "happiness" tied to them does not last either, and once the relationship ends, or the job turns out to not be what we thought it would be, or we move to a new place and suddenly don't feel popular and important anymore, then our happiness fades as quickly as the setting sun at dusk, and we experience the darkness of suffering, of pain, of sadness and despair and bitterness and fear. Then we desperately try and find some other external condition to cling to for our peace, but inevitably the same thing happens, those conditions change and fade away, and we once again find ourselves back in the darkness. Constantly cycling from temporary happiness to pain, temporary happiness to pain.
This is the human condition.
Is there a remedy? Is there a solution to fix this seemingly endless existential angst, darkness and suffering that plagues our human lives and experience? Is there a state beyond the darkness, liberated once and for all from the suffering and pain that exists in human life?
The wise ones, sages and so-called "saints" and women of all ages in human history have all answered with a unified answer: yes.
Yes, they say, there is a state of existence free and beyond the suffering and unsatisfactory experience of mundane existence. There is a liberation - there is a bliss - there is a nirvana - there is a heaven on earth - there is freedom - there is enlightenment.
They know because they experience it themselves. And anyone observing them and their lives could see that yes, such freedom from suffering is in fact possible and attainable, for these people are living and breathing examples of it.
What, do these wise and liberated ones have to say as to how to attain this elusive lasting happiness that we all truly seek?
Is it in living a certain way? Doing certain deeds? Arranging life in a certain way?
The wise ones say that, yes, arranging the external conditions in your life does in fact bring one some measure of pleasantness and happiness is one's experience,
but most important, "The kingdom of heaven is within". In other words, ultimate freedom from suffering starts and ends with the Mind. It is all about the Mind and the Heart.
If the mind and the heart and pure, free of ignorance and delusion and all the negative mind-states resultant, then one speaks and acts from a pure heart within, and thus only good comes of his actions and thoughts and deeds in the outer world.
The kingdom of heaven is really an inward state - a state of being.
When one's mind is present, quiet, still, and alert. When one is non-grasping. When one knows his oneness with all, and thus feels connection and compassion with all (open heart), then one naturally speaks and acts with pure heart and good intent. Thus, what is returned back to him is pure and good. The universe, being essentially a mirror, reflects to one what one puts out.
This is the law of karma, essentially.
All actions have their reactions, all causes have their effects. All actions have their corresponding consequence.
They tell us that by spending our days in ways that we would optimally enjoy, serving others, connecting with and being good to others, relaxing, calming and stilling our minds, resting in pure present moment awareness, refraining from negative, harmful actions and doing only beneficial, loving actions, and by seeing through the delusion of separation and duality and life/death, and thus letting go of our grasping onto the ever-changing flux of the universe, then we can gain lasting peace and happiness, for there will no longer be anything to cause us grief or pain or suffering anymore. When we have conquered our own mind and established it in truth and purity, then we are free from the grips of suffering which only arise from an untamed mind which becomes wrapped and trapped in delusion and ignorance and impurity.
"The Kingdom of Heaven is within".

Thus, through my music, I will share my journey. Share my life. My ups. My downs. My good times. My bad times. My joys and my struggles. And, most importantly, what I have learned from my struggles. How I have grown. What I have had to let go of and accept. My quest for truth and freedom and enlightenment. My quest of inward transformation and purification. My never-ending journey of growth, transformation, change and evolution.